“What was your favorite thing about school this year?”
My teachers, slash, pastors, slash, friends asked me this on Thursday as we completed our last day of second year.
For a second I was just lost for words. Normally I can pin point exactly what I want to say, or at least take a minute to figure it out.
I think this time my problem was that I couldn’t pick just one thing.
One, I didn’t really want to think of anything because I didn’t want to admit that it was over. Two, I loved almost everything about school.
Sure, there were some hard times, and things happened that at the time felt like everything was falling apart. Looking back now I can see God’s hand in every single thing that happened this year.
I am stronger. I am wiser. I am definitely more confident. I was challenged in so many ways, and God gave me the strength to power through.
I am more passionate. I am filled with hope for my future.
I am finally letting creativity have my time.
I am dreaming bigger. I am dreaming out of the box. And I am doing.
A couple of weeks ago, we had a Lighthouse core team meeting. There Jamie shared his heart about “The Living Room,” a new feel for the ministry building. He mentioned wanting to make these big burlap canvasses with all the Lighthouse countries on them and the city that it’s in.
Immediately I started dreaming. You see Jamie had shown our class how to make stencils for spray painting and from the very moment I pulled my first stencil off of my canvas and saw a beautiful picture, I wanted to keep doing it.
After the meeting ended I went straight up to him and asked if I could do it.
Weeks later, three hours of cutting stencils, stapling and removing staples from the stencils, inhaling spray paint fumes for a couple of hours and I was done.
Nine countries were laid out before me on beautiful burlap canvasses. Nine places that I know if I were to go there at some point I would be welcomed as family. Nine Lighthouses that are standing tall and strong, encouraging people and welcoming people into their homes just as they are. Amazing leaders who choose to believe in the people who enter their doors, just as Jamie and Natalie believed in me.
You see, I was actually astounded at the fact that Jamie immediately told me to go for it. Both him and Natalie encouraging along the way, telling me what looked amazing and how awesome it was. THAT was the reason in the end it felt like one of my biggest accomplishments. Not because I thought I couldn’t do it, but because of them, I knew that I could do it the whole way through.
So my second year is over. Second year is over and I don’t know what is next for me. But for the first time in forever, I’m not scared.
I’m not scared of the unknown, and I’m also not scared of what’s going to happen to me.
I’m hopeful. I’m excited for new beginnings and new things brewing.
I’m excited to dream, and do, and be.
I’m excited to go out and fight for what I want because I am believed in.
My friends believe in me, my pastors believe in me, and most of all God believes in me.