Giddy Anxious

Have you ever been so excited for something that you just get anxious about it?

Like, you’re totally happy, but this thing that is supposed to be happening means that you have to be patient.

You need to wait.

And the waiting is causing you anxiety.

Well. That’s me right now.

I’m waiting to hear about a possible job. And after finally telling the one person I was scared to tell, the fear disappeared and all that was left was excitement.

I feel full support and I feel that the interview went well.

I have heard it from good authority that I pretty much have the job already.

But I’m waiting to hear it from the person who matters, the director, the person who would be hiring me.

I NEED to be patient. But all I can do is keep checking my email.

It reminds me of when I would go to camp, or really anywhere that I was excited to go to.

I can’t really sleep. I’m anxious. I’m excited. I’m trying to be patient. But I just keep jumping every time someone mentions it.

I’m Giddy Anxious.

I know that there are certain situations in my past where I had the chance to be patient and I didn’t wait on God.

I made a choice that I didn’t necessarily want to make and here we are.

I need to wait on God and believe that he has the best for me.

If it’s not this than it will be something else.

I’m waiting.

Anxiously Giddy.

Lord,

I pray that you will give my heart peace. Peace and Patience God. I pray that no matter what I will keep my head high and keep working hard. I will stay confident like I have been the past couple of days. I pray that I will continue striving to be better. Lord I really do want this, more than anything. I was up there for two days and I had already started to feel closer to you because the distractions fell away. I will try my best to understand if you say no that it means there is something better. But Lord I pray there isn’t. ha. I want to strive to know you more God, I want to seek your face. I love you Lord.

Amen.

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