How Can I Not?

Something that I have always had a hard time accepting. That God loves me. 

That he has always loved me. And that he will never fail to love me in the future. 

I have a hard enough time believing that he loves me. 

Someone who made me. 

I believe that my parents love me. 

I believe that most of my friends love me. 

But I can’t believe that my own creator loves me. 

I’m stupid. Let’s just leave it at that. 

Because how can I not believe that God loves me? 

God made my every cell, everything in my body. He made my heart the way it is for a reason. 

How can I not believe that he loves me, when he gave his only son to come and die to save us? 

How can I not believe that he loves me, when I have countless times made it through rough times with only him to thank. 

If I didn’t believe in God, I don’t think I could ever believe that anyone loved me or loves me. 

How can I not know without a doubt that God loves me? 

It’s like I do know. But it’s hard to accept it. 

Because I’m so dirty. Broken. Scared. Hopeless. Disgustingly Unfaithful. 

How could God love that? 

And yet, he does. 

I just need to accept it. 

And all he asks in return? 

That I love him. 

How can I not? 

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