Now that i’ve got myself all comfortable on my couch; room clean, tv show on, and the dorm doors unlocked to everyone.
I can relax.
Now that i’ve hidden every flaw of our room, every dirty sock, every chord sticking out from in front of the tv.
Now that I’m “dressed” in my Halloween costume.
Now that i have everything hidden that i don’t want people to see.
I can show people the side of me that may not be so revolting.
I think this is my life in a nutshell.
I only walk out of my room into the world after i have hidden the blemishes, the belly pouch, the frizzies, the puffy eyes and possibly my frown.
Why is it that i feel i have to be perfectly put together twenty-four seven?
Why do we all think that?
Do we really think the world can’t handle our bad sides? Our dark sides even?
If we think people can’t handle bad moods, a little bit of frizzy hair and sometimes the occasionally pimple, then we are destined to be a nuisance and alone for all of our lives.
Think about it, i open up to only my close friends. But what if even they couldn’t handle my faults, my flaws?
I would wonder through, day by day, trying to deal with every frustration, every thought, all alone.
What kind of world would this be?
That’s why i’m thankful that i have even those friends that will listen to my ramblings that don’t always make sense. I’m thankful that i can be transparent with them, and sometimes cry in their arms for no good reason.
Sometimes i wish i were more transparent, and open, and comfortable with people outside of these people i call close friends.
What would the world be if we were all transparent and completely comfortable with one another, rather than trying to hide the faults and the ridiculous quirks that make us who we are?
Let us be ourselves in a world of people always striving to be someone else.
Let us be original, somewhat weird, and completely against conforming.
Let us be transparent.